Archive | August 2007

What’s your value?

Pursuing an authentic career in the fine arts is possibly the most challenging thing a person can do. You must battle self-doubt, back-biting from other artists, and an entire art establishment that is more interested in maintaining the same themes and ideas over cultivating new talent and out of the box mediums. Then you have a public that may or may not know or even care about art. Art is Monet and Van Gogh, not John R. Doe or Jane Q. Then you have the mass marketing of cookie cutter art work via your Targets and Walmarts and such. What chance does the artist of the 20th and 21st century have. How do you get seen in an ocean of many?

Too many would be artist give up because the struggle is so immense. You don’t make money, people don’t understand what the hell you are doing or even why you are doing it, and they often wonder why you don’t get “meaningful” employment. Most people don’t see art as the reflection of life or culture, the pictorial journal of a journey, the dance of brushstrokes, the message in the movement. It is just some paint on a canvas and it doesn’t mean anything. That is quite the wall the get over.

However, that is why so many continue on. We have something to express, to say. We are working through our issues on the canvas, behind the lens, in the clay. The call to the arts is a calling like no other. You can’t just turn “it” off and be “normal.” You base your value on how many people see your work, how many people buy your work. You base your value on whether or not you get the museum show or a write in an art magazine or journal. If you don’t get any of the outside validation you need, then how do you know what your value is? Even if you determine your own value, how do you get others to see your value?

And the grind goes on….

Everyday is a new challenge. My will is being tested regularly. Sometimes I want to give in, to be “normal”…I never thought of myself as much of an outsider, but as I get older the world seems so grim and uncaring. I don’t want to be a part of that reality. This is not to say that I want to live with rose colored glasses, but  I always thought things were suppose to get better not worse…

Anyway, so the grind goes on. The squeezing of creative juices, coughing up ideas, and sorting out the trash from the gems.

Yes, the grind goes on.

So, today I will drill some pieces in the hopes of forming some jewelry people will clamor for. I will paint a painting that express some part of my subconscious. I will wonder if I made the right decision. I will wonder when my work will pay off. I fret about how much longer I can go on being a ‘starving’ off of the good will of my relatives. Perhaps they believe in my dream more than I do.

As I grind forward, I must let go of my doubt. I must welcome hope and possibility and prosperity.

New Stuff…


So I have been upping my production of jewelry and doing more paintings. I am adding a jewelry section to this blog to show off some of my work.

Here are some more pictures of my workspace.

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I am working on a follow up to my “Koifire (aka FireFish)” painting.  I am selling off my “FireFish” painting. You can visit my Etsy Shop  I will be changing the name of the shop soon. I am also thinking about a new domain name.