These are all things Artists (successful Artists) say to those of us struggling in the muck of our creative juices and impulses. “If you aren’t living and breathing your art, then you are not a true Artists.” Unfortunately, in this economy, it is hard to “live and breathe”‘ that Art when you have bills to pay and be accountable too. You don’t want to just do things for the money, but society is truly set up to kill the creative spirit. That is how I’ve been feeling lately.
I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but my mom had surgery recently. She is recovering..luckily my sister was able to take some time off to help. But for the past week, it has been me with both parents and it can get very frustrating and stressful. Considering my own back and stress issues….yeah. Finding the energy and will to complete projects is difficult. Finding the time to really flesh all I want to flesh out is just vexing.
Below, is blast from the past. A vector graphic I called DJ Na-O. It has a lot of elements I enjoy. I like the colors a lot. It is like he is the DJ for spring or something or the DJ of the Dawn…LOL
I have been thinking about my life choices these days. I try to avoid the voices of doubt around me, but they have been louder than usual. In these economy, in this society, it is so hard to make a living as an artists. To live the art, to be the art, to breathe the art. I sometimes wonder if it is worth it.
There is so much ugliness, so much pain in the world…I just want to create things that remind people of the beauty in the world. I want to create a space where people can escape the pain (if only for a little while. It is hard to even be seen as artists as no one really thinks of being a creative professional a profession. Boo to that.
Life is going. I’ve been doing more digital paintings. I am learning to enjoy it more. I still miss using watercolors and acrylics. Digital painting is convenient and less mess (no clean up). I am finding that my paintings a very “painterly” and almost sculptural in nature. Here are few of my latest works:
abstract painting by KBrown 2012
abstract painting by KBrown 2012
I’m considering entering some art contest. It is all part of having more confidence in my work. I do have to say that my ideas and my aesthetics have become more refined. I’m willing to take more risks.
I am happy to report that I have been painting a lot more. Well, I have been digital painting a lot more. I still feel strange calling that painting because I am not using actual paint (I know, I have issues) but I have doing some really nice and interesting things. I really like experimenting with light and color and shapes in ways that most people cannot (or are not prepared to) relate with. I’m not a photo-realistic artist. I am more of an abstract expressionist (if you had to put me in a category)…I think. Sometimes, my work looks more impressionist like. I work from a very internal, surreal, subconscious space. Almost dream-like… here is one piece I finished the other night:
Touching, 2012 Digital Painting KBrown
I’ve also been editing some photos I took while still in Japan. I feel a little odd posting them after such a longtime. I think the distant between what I was going through at the time and now is helping me cope with not doing all I wanted to there. I tried not to take such “touristy” photos. There are more photos I want to go through, but here is one I am particularly proud of. I did do some “digital” enhancing via photo filters, but not too much.
I’m still working on my memoir about living and working in Japan. I’m very excited about this project.
I’ve been working on more jewelry. I spent the afternoon shaping porcelain medallions for hand-painting designs on. I have some simple pendants I will put on chains tonight for placement in my shop by tomorrow afternoon. I’m need to decide if I want to put more earrings into my shop. When I think about jewelry, earrings just don’t come into my mind. I definitely need to do more earrings.
Business wise, I’m still waiting for business to pick up. The market is tough. But I know I make quality interesting things that come from the heart. I am willing to put myself out there. Each painting is piece of myself. I’m also building some collage pieces. I may test some small collages out in my shop.
I just finished my latest paintings.There is something about the lack of refinement that is both attractive to me and vexing to me. There is a homey-ness, painterly feel; simplicity in the execution. Or maybe the desire to have simplicity in the execution. I will be doing more paintings like this.
In the end, it about beauty and color and things that are shiny.
Like the days spent playing in your mothers jewelry box or something. The preciousness and value in the gems are the ones you feel inside; the value is personal and internal.
Two paintings: Affordable Opulence and Opulence is an Illusion. Both by Karmen Brown (2012)
Since my last post, I have been very fatigued and not feeling very well…thus I have not done anymore ATC’s nor have I finished my Valentine’s project. I feel unaccomplished because of this but what can I do. Starting March 1st I will stop producing art as I need to back up my studio.
On April 19th, I will be flying to Japan. I will be living there for at least a year. In my heart, I want to stay longer. I did do a couple of Valentine’s Day photos.