These are turning into monthly updates, LOL. It can’t be helped.
For the past month, I’ve been trying to get some extra funds through crowdfunding. I selected GoFundMe because it seemed like the easiest to use and rather flexible. I’ve sending the link to my Twitter feed and Tumbler blog, but I haven’t gotten any donations yet. I suspected it would be difficult. I even tried to make it more appealing by offering custom artwork for certain donation levels. Still nothing. Now, the thing with GoFundMe is that you can’t even show up in the searches until you have at least $100 dollars donated through the site (you have the option to add donations that were not given online). And then you have to meet the approval of the administrators of the site.
I knew it would be difficult to raise money for myself because I had hard time raising money for a 5K run/walk for Cancer and I was asking my friends. Not a one could bother to donate even a dollar. So, even though my GoFundMe is connected to my Facebook page but I don’t share that page…..
Now, why would I need extra funding. Because in this economy, we could all use a little help. Being a fulltime artist is hardwork, it is stressful. You do what you can to supplement your income, but when you “supplement” job starts to take over your life, then your work starts to suffer. No one likes that. On top of that, I have one parent battling cancer and another with mobility issues (in addition to my own health problems), so my presence at home is almost always needed…especially in the afternoons and weekends. So, yeah, this life is hard and difficult..and I never imagined that it would be like this but it is what it is. My expensive art school/training gave me lots of knowledge, skills, and tools (and debt)…that most people in a capitalist society have no need for. HA!
I have been thinking about my life choices these days. I try to avoid the voices of doubt around me, but they have been louder than usual. In these economy, in this society, it is so hard to make a living as an artists. To live the art, to be the art, to breathe the art. I sometimes wonder if it is worth it.
There is so much ugliness, so much pain in the world…I just want to create things that remind people of the beauty in the world. I want to create a space where people can escape the pain (if only for a little while. It is hard to even be seen as artists as no one really thinks of being a creative professional a profession. Boo to that.
Since things have been rough for me lately, I decided to start a gofundme page. It is mainly to help with me being a fulltime artist while continuing to care for my ailing parents. I have different donation levels where donors will receive an original signed painting from me. I post examples of my work in hopes to generate to buzz and money. It will be uphill battle, but I’ve never let the stop me before. I am on the right path.
I am happy to report that I have been painting a lot more. Well, I have been digital painting a lot more. I still feel strange calling that painting because I am not using actual paint (I know, I have issues) but I have doing some really nice and interesting things. I really like experimenting with light and color and shapes in ways that most people cannot (or are not prepared to) relate with. I’m not a photo-realistic artist. I am more of an abstract expressionist (if you had to put me in a category)…I think. Sometimes, my work looks more impressionist like. I work from a very internal, surreal, subconscious space. Almost dream-like… here is one piece I finished the other night:
Touching, 2012 Digital Painting KBrown
I’ve also been editing some photos I took while still in Japan. I feel a little odd posting them after such a longtime. I think the distant between what I was going through at the time and now is helping me cope with not doing all I wanted to there. I tried not to take such “touristy” photos. There are more photos I want to go through, but here is one I am particularly proud of. I did do some “digital” enhancing via photo filters, but not too much.
I apologize for the delay. I didn’t want to post anything until I did some new paintings. My mini memoir is coming along…slowly. Yet, I am still very excited to be doing it.
I added some more necklaces to my shop. I think they are very nice. I have some earring ideas I’m still working out. I have to go to the craft store for more chain.
Back to my new paintings; these were done on my iPod touch using Artrage. I did one in a very sculptural style that I am going to explore more. The first one I did is called Sunny Sea. The second is titled Shimmery Tree. I really like them both.
A digital painting done on iPod Touch using Artrage. By Karmen Brown
Shimmery Tree by Karmen Brown Done on iPod Touch using Artrage. 2012