Yesterday I said I was working on some photos I took of my dad. I started using GIMP 2 on my newer laptop and then this morning I remembered the photo editing site Phixr. I like Phixr because it has a lot of interesting filters to help mediocre photos. It also gives me ideas on what techniques I can use in my photo editing and as well as paintings.
So, this is one of the pictures I did using GIMP 2.
I put a blue overlay there….I liked this photo when I took it. And I’ll still work with it some more.
This next photo I did with Phixr.
I really liked how this turned out. I think it tells more of a story and has a sense of atmosphere.
I have a small collection of candid photos I took of my father. He doesn’t like having his photo taken but I ask and he concedes. I did the photos in an attempt to try to understand him better. He doesn’t always talk about what he is going through. In any case, I’ve been trying to edit the photos (taken with the camera phone) and it has been interesting.
I haven’t done this kind of work in quite a while so nothing is looking right to me. I hope to have one I am happy with by this evening.
So far, my start to the New Year has been slow. I’m still dealing with a lot of family issues and serious financial woes that can seriously suck the joy and imagination out of my life. But my goal for this year is to get myself out there more. What does that mean? That means promoting myself more, not being so shy about my work.
I do feel self conscious about my work/art because it may not look or feel like what is popular with current art consumers/customers. But I can only do what I know and what I feel and what moves me. I can only hope that what moves me can possibly move others and with that there is a connection. I don’t want to make something pretentious or fake or forced. I want my artwork to feel like a natural extension of myself.
I haven’t even had room to write either. That is bothersome because there is so much I want to tell. Please check the link along the side of my blog and if you can help out by donating or requesting a commission piece or buying from my Etsy store.
These are all things Artists (successful Artists) say to those of us struggling in the muck of our creative juices and impulses. “If you aren’t living and breathing your art, then you are not a true Artists.” Unfortunately, in this economy, it is hard to “live and breathe”‘ that Art when you have bills to pay and be accountable too. You don’t want to just do things for the money, but society is truly set up to kill the creative spirit. That is how I’ve been feeling lately.
I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but my mom had surgery recently. She is recovering..luckily my sister was able to take some time off to help. But for the past week, it has been me with both parents and it can get very frustrating and stressful. Considering my own back and stress issues….yeah. Finding the energy and will to complete projects is difficult. Finding the time to really flesh all I want to flesh out is just vexing.
Below, is blast from the past. A vector graphic I called DJ Na-O. It has a lot of elements I enjoy. I like the colors a lot. It is like he is the DJ for spring or something or the DJ of the Dawn…LOL
I have been thinking about my life choices these days. I try to avoid the voices of doubt around me, but they have been louder than usual. In these economy, in this society, it is so hard to make a living as an artists. To live the art, to be the art, to breathe the art. I sometimes wonder if it is worth it.
There is so much ugliness, so much pain in the world…I just want to create things that remind people of the beauty in the world. I want to create a space where people can escape the pain (if only for a little while. It is hard to even be seen as artists as no one really thinks of being a creative professional a profession. Boo to that.