I’ve come to realize you really need to be careful who you let in. I mean, who you let see the true you. Some folks will stop at nothing to take advantage of you once they think they have gained your trust. This is especially true for those who work in the arts. A lot of the work we do is very personal and comes from a personal place. To have some one tear that work apart can be traumatic. I’m not even talking about constructive criticism, I’m talking about someone just saying or doing things that totally disrespects the work you are doing.
For all of us, the way we express ourselves is different. How we work, why we work, who we work with shapes our art and shapes us. I suppose, what I’m trying to say is be careful and be kind. Be careful who you open yourself to and be kind to yourself and your work.
I don’t know about you, but this year has just been flying by. I don’t even know where February went. All of sudden it is March.
February was a rough month on a creative and on a personal level. It is actually hard to separate the two with me. What I create is so connected to what is or isn’t going on in my personal life. I’ve suffered from a lack of motivation that stems from not knowing what it is I want to do next. I have also been overwhelmed with many ideas that I struggle to start. I don’t know where to start. Then there is feeling as though nothing I do will be good enough or note worthy enough. It can be very hard to create things when battling inner demons.
What goals, if any, do I set for myself for March? What is it that I want to achieve?
It is very late and I need to go to bed, but I don’t necessarily feel tired. I’m trying to steer more people to my shop and get my artwork and jewelry sold. The porcelain pieces are coming along nicely. I still need to handpaint them. I’m going to introduce rings into the shop within the coming weeks. They are going to be very boho and very cute.
I need to get back to painting though. I often ask myself,” Will I ever animate again?” and “Will I expand on my marionette story??” I just keep plugging away hoping that something will catch the eye or start a trend. It is rough staying positive throughout the growth and hardwork, but I know that payoff and recognition is JUST around the corner.
The beautiful butterfly goes through a long but peaceful transformation but the Phoenix must set itself a blaze before it can rise again renewed. Which am I?
I’m still working on my memoir about living and working in Japan. I’m very excited about this project.
I’ve been working on more jewelry. I spent the afternoon shaping porcelain medallions for hand-painting designs on. I have some simple pendants I will put on chains tonight for placement in my shop by tomorrow afternoon. I’m need to decide if I want to put more earrings into my shop. When I think about jewelry, earrings just don’t come into my mind. I definitely need to do more earrings.
Business wise, I’m still waiting for business to pick up. The market is tough. But I know I make quality interesting things that come from the heart. I am willing to put myself out there. Each painting is piece of myself. I’m also building some collage pieces. I may test some small collages out in my shop.
I keep meaning to post more often, but then life/work gets in the way. Not that I don’t have lots to say; I do. But, sometimes the words in my head get stuck and I can’t put them to page. This is an issue because I want to write about my experience in Japan: my feelings, my interactions, what I learned about myself…and my downfall (why I couldn’t stay).
Hundreds of people go there to work and live, many decide to make Japan their home, others want to but can’t. And still others just want to go see and experience Japan on the short term. We are all in a common stream but come with different experience, unique to ourselves. I really want to share my story. I need to this to help heal and forgive myself as well as show appreciation for the people I met and worked with. Those who were there for me when I thought no one was. This part of my life was profound and I can’t pretend like it never happened.
Painting!!! Not.Really. I working on collages right now. For me, creating an art piece is like a journey through a maze. Or maybe a scavenger hunt. I’m looking for all the puzzle pieces. I have come up with some pretty nifty ideas. I put a small one together earlier today. Yes, this plan has legs and will be walking.
This past week, I’ve been in bit of a rut. It may be that I have too many potential projects to focus on. I have this book on Art and fear; and I think I have a lot of fear right now. When you create something, it is so personal and it is born of you life and experiences. I piece of your soul goes into it. I can be maddening, but the results are beautiful. Paintings, illustrations, photos…whatever it is you do to express yourself does not have to be complex. It just has to be real, authentic, genuine. I believe people enjoy that about works of art they view and/or experience.
I was going through some boxes the other day and ran across a book I bought back in 2005. It is workbook called “The Artist’s marketing and action plan Workbook”. The first part of the book you are filling out a survey and making out mission statements. Some of the things I wrote as far as what I wanted to accomplish and who I admired were so amateurish and young. It seemed like I had a goal in mind but it wasn’t authentic or didn’t come from a genuine place. I’m older now and I’ve experienced more. My ideas have grown, my concepts have grown. I think even my horizons have grown.
Articulating those ideas and concepts and reaching those horizons…that is another story