These are all things Artists (successful Artists) say to those of us struggling in the muck of our creative juices and impulses. “If you aren’t living and breathing your art, then you are not a true Artists.” Unfortunately, in this economy, it is hard to “live and breathe”‘ that Art when you have bills to pay and be accountable too. You don’t want to just do things for the money, but society is truly set up to kill the creative spirit. That is how I’ve been feeling lately.
I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but my mom had surgery recently. She is recovering..luckily my sister was able to take some time off to help. But for the past week, it has been me with both parents and it can get very frustrating and stressful. Considering my own back and stress issues….yeah. Finding the energy and will to complete projects is difficult. Finding the time to really flesh all I want to flesh out is just vexing.
Below, is blast from the past. A vector graphic I called DJ Na-O. It has a lot of elements I enjoy. I like the colors a lot. It is like he is the DJ for spring or something or the DJ of the Dawn…LOL
These are turning into monthly updates, LOL. It can’t be helped.
For the past month, I’ve been trying to get some extra funds through crowdfunding. I selected GoFundMe because it seemed like the easiest to use and rather flexible. I’ve sending the link to my Twitter feed and Tumbler blog, but I haven’t gotten any donations yet. I suspected it would be difficult. I even tried to make it more appealing by offering custom artwork for certain donation levels. Still nothing. Now, the thing with GoFundMe is that you can’t even show up in the searches until you have at least $100 dollars donated through the site (you have the option to add donations that were not given online). And then you have to meet the approval of the administrators of the site.
I knew it would be difficult to raise money for myself because I had hard time raising money for a 5K run/walk for Cancer and I was asking my friends. Not a one could bother to donate even a dollar. So, even though my GoFundMe is connected to my Facebook page but I don’t share that page…..
Now, why would I need extra funding. Because in this economy, we could all use a little help. Being a fulltime artist is hardwork, it is stressful. You do what you can to supplement your income, but when you “supplement” job starts to take over your life, then your work starts to suffer. No one likes that. On top of that, I have one parent battling cancer and another with mobility issues (in addition to my own health problems), so my presence at home is almost always needed…especially in the afternoons and weekends. So, yeah, this life is hard and difficult..and I never imagined that it would be like this but it is what it is. My expensive art school/training gave me lots of knowledge, skills, and tools (and debt)…that most people in a capitalist society have no need for. HA!
Life is going. I’ve been doing more digital paintings. I am learning to enjoy it more. I still miss using watercolors and acrylics. Digital painting is convenient and less mess (no clean up). I am finding that my paintings a very “painterly” and almost sculptural in nature. Here are few of my latest works:
abstract painting by KBrown 2012
abstract painting by KBrown 2012
I’m considering entering some art contest. It is all part of having more confidence in my work. I do have to say that my ideas and my aesthetics have become more refined. I’m willing to take more risks.
What inspires us? If we write, why do we write? If we draw, why do we draw? If we take photographs, what makes us take that photograph?
These questions went through my mind over the Thanksgiving holiday. I’ve been feeling stagnant in my work and felt the need to sit and try to understand what I am missing my life that should be giving me a drive to create better works of art. To paint better more interesting subjects. To take more dynamic photos. To take more chances and really put myself out there. This life a lonely one. But I suppose it doesn’t have to be.
I present my most recent Artrage painting (done on iPod touch).
I’m happy to report I have been busy creating. Lately, I have been using Artrage on my iPod Touch. It is really a tool/resource of convenience. It is easy to expand on an idea or act on inspiration when on the go. On the fly art!
Lately, I haven’t been doing any *actual* painting but I have been doing painting with computer programs. I’m fine and very confident working with vector programs, but paint programs like Corel Painter or Artrage baffle me a little. I have seen some excellent pieces done by other artist who are very comfortable with the programs. I’m not as comfortable with painting programs because of some block in my mind about the genuine-ness of it all.
The following are some digital paint pieces I’ve done my iPod touch.
Heat by Karmen Brown
Sunrise by Karmen Brown
On the jewelry making side, I have been doing some up-cycling or re-purposing of items for necklaces and earrings.